meeting shirlyn at 10am
to eat breakfast and also help her plan too
then right
WALAU!!
wake up early in the morning with this freaking bad pain again.
sighs. i really dont know why is it like this.
sit down also got problem. what to do man.
can you imagine you can only sit upright?
only upright okay. you cant even rest your back!
WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME.
ive yet to go see doctor. mmm
i had a dream. its about my back.
here we go.
one day, i had a very bad pain. really cannot take it anymore. called my dad and mum. they send me to ttsh. zzz (hahah) eee cant imagine me wearing their pajamas! haha okay back here!
ya. then they gave me a painkiller through injecting to my spine area. then also draw out the fluid in there to go for some test. okay. then i had to stay for observation as usual la in hospital.
then the result was out. doctor says must go for OPERATION! omgomgomg!!!
i was damn scared. i really wanted to like run out you know!! then every night in the hospital i cried and cried. and i prayed and prayed.
i'm so scared because marcus's sister also had back pain. she went for operation and then now she cant bend down. she cant have kids. oh gawd.
and i dont want my family to like worry. its really like a burden man.
i have a strong feeling that its my spine. like really my spine.
you cant bend down it doesnt even concern your muscles or whatever lah.
SIGHS.
i keep on praying. i really wonder what the hell is in there making me so pain, making me cannot bend down.
the moment i woke up from the dream, i prayed immediately. like seriously.
this isnt a joking matter to me now.
at first it kinda was luh. but now, it keeps on coming back again and again.
like its more often than usual already.
think its time for me to go see a doc.
but then again, it come on and off leh. haiy
i need prayers. please