took bus to imh with afiqah today,
trying to sleep in the bus, but couldnt.
): people walking up and down, hitting my leg
then keep waking up whenever im going to fall asleep!
finally! tomorrow im on afternoon shift,
but i know its going to be so boring.
today around 12 plus, we were so bored till we could even use handphones man!
patients were either seeing doctor, walking up and down, singing or stoning.
wonder what do they do during the afternoon and nights.
have not been on afternoon shifts yet.
have been waking up around 5 everday! )):
and everytime in the bus, either going home, or to work,
sitting in the bus with or without friend,
i look out of the window,
SO MANY things i will automatically think of.
norms will be sad. i also dont know why.
omg, i hope i wont get depression man.
I DONT WANT TO GO IMH, its horrible in there.
haha, sighs
each time i think of you and what you said,
haiyyyyyyyy.
forget it.
I've just regretted so much why did i ever even told you that.
was too stupid. way to stupid.
why would ever a girl confess to a guy.
normally is guys telling girls how he feels right.
but i did it the other way.
and it turned out bad.
freak,, i just made things between us like crap.
REALLY CRAP.
why did i ever do that?
ITS MY FIRST TIME.
i dont know what motivated me to do it.
my sister supported me but haiyyyy..
i should know where i stand la.
just crumple it up,
throw it away.
you're just wasting your time
so dont say a word that i wouldn't say to you
that i wouldn't say to you.